My focus has been single minded for the most part. The goal is to fulfill my dream of becoming a Pilot in the most cost effective way possible. Before you judge me consider my position. I admit I maybe a little more budget conscious than most, but it’s important to me that I get the best deal possible in everything I pursue. I regularly troll 2nd hand stores, looking to save on items by paying pennies on the dollar. Case in point: A brand new Fat Max tool bag that retails for $39.95 I recently nabbed at Goodwill for $5 bucks! I was so excited, I pretended to shop but I was secretly taking a victory lap around the store. It’s become a competition, really. I can’t enter a store without heading for the clearance area first to see what deals are there to be had. I won’t even stop at car dealerships that boast their “no haggle” policy. Where’s the fun in that? I have been conditioned to settle for nothing less than the lowest price for the highest value and it's landed me some amazing deals, but it's also kept me from experiencing some things that are important to me, that is, until recently.
My family was having a typical Sunday when my wife called me at work and told me that she had just received the news that her dad had passed. My father in law, affectionately known as “TJ”, had transitioned in his sleep and although he had faced some health struggles recently, it was a shock to all of us. TJ had been a father to me from the time I asked his permission to marry his daughter and he had taken on a greater role in my life when my own father had passed twelve years ago. As I drove home to be with my family all I thought about was the last conversation I had with TJ about a month ago. He was recovering from a surgical procedure and doing quite well. We chatted for a while and I shared with him my renewed interest in aviation and how it had always been something that I wanted to do, but had constantly talked myself out of, to which TJ abruptly replied, “live your dreams, man, don’t just dream them. You want to get to your last day with as little regret as possible.” We continued our conversation about aviation and my father-in-law blew my mind with his vast knowledge of gulfstream jets. His “dream” comments didn’t resonate at the time because there was no indication to me that TJ was at the end of his life. I certainly didn’t know these words would be the last advice I would get from a man I admired as much as my own father, who, toward the end of his own life, had expressed regret in his decision to give up playing the piano completely in order to focus greater on his career. And now here I am driving home, astounded by the unlikely possibility that the two most important men in my life, who at different stages in my life, had taught me to be a better man, father, husband and son, had essentially left me with the same lesson:
Minimize the regrets.
So as I continue to pound this defeatist procrastinator into a licensed Pilot, digging for deals on flight lessons and finding ways to save, all the while, complaining about just how expensive this process is, I will accept no excuses not to continue because now I realize that the fulfillment of this dream is no longer just for me. I’m going to learn to fly as a tribute to you, Pops, who gave up something you loved so that I could one day pursue my dreams. I’ll also learn to fly as tribute to you, TJ, who reminded me that dreams are to be lived.
(PS. TJ, tell Pops to be sure to save me a seat…)